I'm Lost

I found your letters in the drawer
Reminds me of moments I can't restore
I try to clean, but all I find
Are pieces of me that you left behind
I scream to walls, they don't reply
Just echoes of a broken guy
I count the steps you never take
The silent words you never make

I tell myself to let it slide
But there's a war I fight inside

I'm lost in memories that don't forgive
They haunt the places where I live
Each heartbeat sounds like "please don't leave"
But you're the lie I still believe
There's thunder buried in my chest
A storm I never learned to rest
I wear the weight no one can see
It's digging deeper into me

The mirror shows a haunted face
A tired man in the wrong place
The clock keeps ticking, sharp and slow
Like every "sorry" you let go
I still pretend I'm doing fine
But every joke's a warning sign
The friends don't ask, they see it too
I'm wearing pain you put me through

I try to sleep, but dreams rewind
To the night you left me behind

I'm lost in memories that don't forgive
They haunt the places where I live
Each heartbeat sounds like "please don't leave"
But you're the lie I still believe
My smile's a mask I've learned to wear
A practiced look of "I don't care"
But underneath, I'm split in two
A stranger I keep hiding too

I won't scream, I won't beg
But I still feel you in my legs
Each step I take is out of sync
Still drowning deeper than I think

I'm lost
No clear path, no guiding sound
No hand to pull me off the ground
No fight to win, no peace to find
Just fragments scattered in my mind
I'm lost
No map, no light, no moving on
Still fighting ghosts that linger on
No fear, no pride, no right or wrong
Just me, carrying all that's gone