It's Not My Time

I read old notes I should have burned
Like there was something left to learn
The past still lingered on the page
Like I won't live inside one age
The words were mine, but felt so far
Like letters from the way I was

I knew that ache, I knew that tone
But some battles start when you're alone

It's not my time to lose myself
Not my time to be someone else
Not my time to close this door
On all the things I'm fighting for
There is one reason in my soul
It's not my time to end this song

I took those pages, one by one
And watched them fade beneath my thumb
Each line was loud, but not enough
To pull me back through older dust
I told myself, "Just let them go"
Some doors are best left closed for good

I heard the silence in my chest
Like something hard refused to rest

It's not my time to close my eyes
Not my time to lay these dreams aside
Not my time to blame the stars
Or let fate speak louder than my heart
There is one reason in my soul
It's not my time to end this song

I wore my pain like a second skin
And called it truth, and let it in
Each scar has a time and name
And here alone I feel the blame

It's not my time to lose myself
Or store this hope up on the shelf
It's not my time to live back then
Or hand my heart to ghosts again
There is one reason in my soul
But now it's time to close this song