Under My Skin

It's half past one, the ceiling stares
The room still smells like your shampoo's there
The blanket holds a shape of you
That even time can't pull me through
I scroll through texts I'll never send
Rewrite the past that doesn't bend
And every word I try to hide
Still finds a way to crawl inside

I don't say your name out loud
But it lingers like a vow

You're under my skin like a song I forgot
But hum in the dark when I'm hurting a lot
You're not in my life, but you're stuck in my veins
A whisper that cuts more than all of the pain
I don't know how you still live in my breath
But you do
You're under my skin like the truth

The mirror shows me sleep-deprived
Still wearing thoughts I thought had died
Your hoodie's hanging on my chair
I swore I'd burn it, but I wouldn't dare
You're not a wound, you're something worse
You're every word I can't reverse
And if I dream, I dream of then
Just to wake up lost again

I tried to fill the space you left
But silence always fits the best

You're under my skin like a song I forgot
But hum in the dark when I'm hurting a lot
You're not in my life, but you're stuck in my veins
A whisper that cuts more than all of the pain
I don't know how you still live in my breath
But you do
You're under my skin like the truth

If I could bleed you out, I would
But some things stay more than they should
You're not a ghost, you never died
You're just the ache I keep inside

You're under my skin like a bruise that won't fade
No matter the time, no matter the shade
You're the reason I still check my phone
Even when I'm sure I'm alone
I don't know how to let you in
Or let you go
You're under my skin and you know