Underneath My Skin

You see the smile, but not the weight
The way I fold beneath the fake
I walk like I've got nothing left
Still breathing, but it's just a theft

They only know what I let show
The surface calm, the undertow
But deep beneath the gentle grin
I feel the war underneath my skin

I don't bleed where you can see
But I'm breaking quietly

Underneath my skin
There's a storm I hold within
Tearing through the walls I built
Filling all the cracks with guilt
Every touch, every lie
Leaves a mark I try to hide
You won't see where I've been
It's buried deep underneath my skin

They say I'm strong, they say I shine
But strength was never truly mine
I wear my armor like a dress
But it's just fear in fancier threads

I've screamed in rooms that stayed so still
I've smiled while swallowing the pill
Of memories I can't begin
To show you underneath my skin

It's not the wounds that ever show
It's the ones that never go

Underneath my skin
There's a storm I hold within
Tearing through the walls I built
Filling all the cracks with guilt
Every touch, every lie
Leaves a mark I try to hide
You won't see where I've been
It's buried deep underneath my skin

If I let it rise, if I let you close
Would you stay, or would you go?
Could you love the parts I fear?
The pieces no one sees from here?

Underneath my skin
Is where I've always been
Screaming soft beneath the calm
Counting all the things gone wrong
Every scar, every sin
Still lingers, still sinks in
But maybe love begins
Where you touch
Underneath my skin