Weight of the Silence

I speak in thoughts I never say
Trapped in the pause that won't go away
Walls don't echo like they used to do
Now they just listen and stare straight through

I count the cracks in the ceiling above
Trying to remember what I used to love
Every breath is a loaded gun
Waiting for the silence to come undone

I'm not okay, but I look the part
Holding still while I fall apart

It's the weight of the silence
That crushes me slow
Screaming inside where no one will know
The louder I hide, the less they can see
What this silence is doing to me
No one breaks, but everyone bends
And I don't know where the silence ends

Some nights I walk until I'm gone
But somehow still end up where I'm from
My shadow's longer than it should be
It's been dragging all the worst of me

I try to outrun what's already here
But the quiet speaks louder than fear

I reach for sound, but it slips away
Like all the things I didn't say

It's the weight of the silence
That crushes me slow
Screaming inside where no one will know
The louder I hide, the less they can see
What this silence is doing to me
No one breaks, but everyone bends
And I don't know where the silence ends

Maybe I'm meant to fade into the dark
Leave no name, just a missing part
But even the quiet leaves a trace
A memory no one can erase

It's the weight of the silence
That holds me down
I wear it like a crown
I'm drowning in noise that no one hears
Choking on the flood of my own fears
If I scream, will it even make a sound?
Or am I just lost, never to be found?